A lot has happened over the last few months which has thrown me in a complete loop as to what I want out of life.. What makes me "happy" and a constant struggle to figure out what is best for me to do.
The constant struggles I have with my ankle always make me question whether I can get into the fire dept. Between going to Chiro and a Physio, my ankle still has it's good and bad days. Crossfit will start soon and I'm told that will help strengthen my ankle.. So I suppose we'll see how that goes and how true that is. If anything, at least it'll put me in some better shape, if I don't die from it.
I started volunteering with Rockdoc and Sunday was my first event. Working alongside doctors, nurses, paramedics really made me question whether med school would be the right fit for me. I've always loved helping people.. Medicine has always been something that I've had interest in. If only I had applied myself more back in high school and college. I don't even know how I'd go about getting into med school right now. I think it would be a lot of bio/chem courses at a college before being able to get accepted into any type of med school. The only med school in BC is UBC as far as I'm aware. I think I may meet up with an academic adviser and see what my options are.. See how badly of a hole I dug for myself from when I didn't care about school. Dr. Travis... Dr. Janot.. has a pretty good ring to it if you ask me!
I find that the one thing I always look forward to doing more than anything else, is volunteering. Whether it be with St. John Ambulance or Rockdoc. Just being able to get out there and help out people when they need it, meet new people and learn new things, I look forward to the next event I'm signed up for. I've committed two full weekends in a row now for it, I'd probably do next weekend as well, but no events are available! I was working along side a nurse on Sunday at the Vancouver Marathon and the amount of information I gained from her was amazing. Between her and our "team lead" doctor, I learned more than I thought I would have. They told me all about IV lines and how to prep/do them/take them out. Gave me a breakdown of everything they were doing and why they were doing it. I know first aid, so I know how to basically take care of people and make sure they'll survive the trip to the hospital, but after that, I know nothing. So it's truly fascinating to see the next level of care that is provided.
I thought taking some time to myself and get away from everything would help to clear my mind and make me figure out what I needed out of my life, what path I should start walking down, so I decided to go to Thailand. Figured I was in that part of the world anyway for work, may as well take a 3.5 hour flight to Thailand instead of having a 16 hour flight if I were to go there from Vancouver. And while Thailand was incredibly beautiful and I was able to relax and enjoy myself.. It didn't really do much with me "finding" myself or figuring anything out. I'm still as confused now as ever before. Granted a bunch of crap happened over the last couple weeks since I've been home that has thrown me for a loop as well and just added that much more stress onto my shoulders.
Ah well.
Life is short, I guess we just have to do whatever the hell we fell like and enjoy every minute of it, because who knows how long it will last.
Til next time.
