Me, Myself and I

Everyone has their own little "demons" or their insecurities. Some are more noticeable than others, whereas, in my case, people only notice them in the simplest cases.

Weight, for me, has always been an issue. I was never super obese, I had a gut and was overweight. It never seemed to bother me too much. I was active in sports, enrolled in two PE classes at school and regularly played hockey/soccer/basketball/baseball with friends after school. I wasn't simply coming over after school and sitting around doing nothing, despite my addiction to the computer/games now, it wasn't like that when I was a kid!

Some days were more difficult than others. Despite being in the "popular" group at school and having my fair share of people whom I could call friends. The names of "chubby" and "fat ass" were still being thrown my way. And you know, I usually brushed it off without thinking twice. I knew I wasn't "average" and knew that I could afford to lose some weight.

Due to me going to college and having issues with my ankle, I dropped out of soccer (still regretting it). My activeness dropped. Friends went away to different schools, people were getting jobs, and life was just getting busy. I still got together with friends, but not nearly as often as we use to. Weight started to gain on me. Again, I wouldn't put myself into the "obese" category, but according to my BMI I was (and still am I think... let me check! - Damn! still obese by .4!) obese.

I started going hard to the gym, going on nearly a daily basis. The results were showing! I was losing weight, people were complimenting me.. it felt good. It was reassuring to see the results of me losing weight and everyone noticing.

Work got busy during the summer (lots of traveling) and my ankle was bothering me every time I tried to work out. So the gym started to fall from a number one priority. Weight came back on.

It wasn't till this past summer (2011) that I really kinda focused and not so much busted my ass, but just tried to lead a healthier lifestyle. Hardly drinking soda anymore, fast food has become a thing of the past. Back in June/July I was 248lbs. Right now I'm at 224lbs. By the wedding (24 days) I'm hoping I can get that down to 210-215.

It's not going to be easy, but it's possible. Just have to up my water intake, be very careful with what I eat and when I eat, and just go to the gym with determination and focus on the end goal.

Need to be in good shape for myself. I care about my life, I don't want to leave my family, stellar girlfriend, or friends behind any sooner than necessary because I didn't take care of myself. Assuming things work out with the fire dept. I'll need to be in shape for that, and also, I need to keep up with Lindsey. She gets hotter every day! Need to make sure I'm looking half decent when I walk along Waikiki beach with her in May!